hi Chris, so sorry, summary if I may attempt to: is your situation sounds remarkably similar to mine: abuse, then chronic illness, then medical neglect and no *psychological/mental* illness, basically doctors washing their hands and not wanting to help? does that sound about right?
(possibly because *your* trauma is too much for *them* to cope with. I encountered this advice on a medical website about torture victims.)
I wanted to relay my personal insight and reflection on insisting I have no psychological/mental illness: it is blindingly obvious to me I have PTSD and am even showing symptoms normally associated with War Zone torture (from both physical and psychological assault). yet I insist I have "no mental illness": I have yet to work out why I know this to be true.
I do know that in the past (bear in mind 11 months) the effects of people not listening is itself *causing* despair distress and shock, which sets me on between one week and one month of A&E visits paramedic callouts and doctor visits, some paramedic callouts *twice a day* last month (!)
but by sticking to a strict diet no carbohydrates no seed oils of any kind as an ultra-high priority I believe I have avoided massive irrecoverable organ and brain damage - as if two strokes and several dozen mini-strokes (several video'd as far back as Jan/feb23) are "not massive damage".
I cannot in any way tell you what you should or should not do. a hint is as close as I will permit myself to relate by saying that what *I* did was to do medical journal research and dietary research starting with Dr Eric Berg, Dr Greg Mandell, then later Barbara O'Neill and from there following the YouTube "we recommend" guide which successfully pattern-matched me with useful information. you'll find a "health" playlist on my YouTube channel lkcl if interested.
the other thing I did, I wish I had read it years ago: Dr Lam Coaching on Adrenal Fatigue and narcissm. I have a 100% symptom match. I wish I had known. you are now out, but still traumatised.
I leave you with this: it sounds to me like you have fibromyalgia. massive inflammation. your body is repairing, but protects you from toxins by doing "inflammation" around the affected area until the damage is healed. but it's a bitch. I wake up sometimes and don't want to walk about, it's so painful. half an hour later I'm through it, but Christ this does not make it easier!
keep in touch Chris, ok?
l.